t[itunes] says:
hey get the SD300!1 i saw it today...its soo thin!!
michka... says:
what
michka... says:
oh i know..i've seen it
michka... says:
did u get it?
t[thankyou jarvis.G5] says:
noo
t[thankyou jarvis.G5] says:
its not cheap
t[thankyou jarvis.G5] says:
only save 30$..not worth it
t[thankyou jarvis.G5] says:
i DID however..buy the canon G5.. heh if uknow which one that is =P
michka... says:
what
t[thankyou jarvis.G5] says:
i bought the Canon G5 camera today
michka... says:
what
t[thankyou jarvis.G5] says:
its a..digicam?
michka... says:
uh...rite
michka... says:
what
t[thankyou jarvis.G5] says:
what what??
michka... says:
what
t[thankyou jarvis.G5] says:
why do u keep saying what
michka... says:
uh...dunno
michka... says:
what
t[thankyou jarvis.G5] says:
har
t[thankyou jarvis.G5] says:
i dont get it
michka... says:
what
t[thankyou jarvis.G5] says:
stop it~
michka... says:
fine
michka... says:
wacky
t[thankyou jarvis.G5] says:
you are
michka... says:
wacky
michka... says:
erm

you see, this is what happens when you let ur sister take over ur msn.....argh....terry thinks i'm insane now..but i guess it's partially my fault too.....note to self. never let sis talk to my friends via msn.

December 20th, 2004, 10:00pm marked the end of my first semester in university.

A lotta change, a lotta experience and a lotta fun. I don't think i've ever grown so much in such a short period of time before. Walking into university was such a mysterious thing, i really was scared out of my mind.

Nevertheless, i've learned that faith can take you places and belief has never had a stronger meaning. New things come and go, change is inevitable and the future is filled with surprises -- but it is choice that ultimately dictates the journey we embark upon. Blessings from the Lord will always overflow, but we need to be able to recognize them. He gives us friends, family, intelligence, good food etc. etc. so much more than what i can list here. Queens has been so much more than what i ever expected. Through the good and the bad the love of God flows down from heaven like a flood. it is definately greater than i have ever imagined it to be. >>

//your faithful love has always been there for me
the greatest love that I have ever known
what can I give to you for all you’ve given to me
you gave it all and you are all I need
you are my king. you are my God
the praises I bring come from my heart...
this is for you for all you’ve done for me
and I wanted to show you how much you mean my God, my God.>>
________________
hillsongs united::my god

// posted by michka @ 11:04 p.m.

sometimes i wonder if there is a point to all of this. i study, work hard & try my best to do well on exams & such. i go in w/understanding of the concepts being tested. i know yet, and yet i really don't....

i should really be doing better in school....and yet all my efforts are all for nothing b/c no matter what, i still do poorly. argh. what's wrong w/me? have i no intelligence? or ability to learn?

psalm 128:1. i think the words should read: unless the Lord writes the exam, Michelle studies in vain. i stand no in the midst of such truth. tested for my belief in the one i call my Lord and my God.

bio.
2pm.
*rolls fingers on desk, stairing at the words: "Test form A"*
thoughts: "i dun wanna do this, i dun wanna do this...too much information....memory overload"

proctor: "you may begin"
*turn to first page of exam. reads question: in the hydrogenation of......blah blah blah, thinking..what the heck? why is ricter so tricky? he never talked about that in class!!!*
about 2:30. darn...still have so many questions to do
4:30pm. success!! exam = done....by done i mean i did it twice....but must dreadfully check it over AGAIN for the 3rd time
4:35pm. i wonder what i'm going to do after this. man, i wanna get out of here. christmas...all that shopping...all that fun back at home. i wanna go home. so freaking badly.
4:50pm. what? where did all that time go? i only looked over 50 questions! so tired...gosh i could fall asleep right here right now.
5:00pm. proctor: "the examination is now over"
phew! i was waiting sooooooo long for that moment. michka walks out like a zombie.

get back. don't wanna do nething. decide to watch an episode of friends. grace comes over & we watch back to the future. such a good 2 hr movie to relieve stress.
7:59pm. crap! what time is it? erm....almost 8. what time does the caf close? 8. omg omg omg.
*race down 5 flights of stairs. ppl say hi...keep running....they think we're insane. run against crazy retarding forces. by that i mean wind. yeah, kingston WIND.*
get there just as lady is about to close the doors. phew! made it just in time. get inside. man, i am so out of shape. i have never breathed so hard for 10min in my life. and the run was only for like a min. darn. i need to exercise and i miss goodlife so dearly.

now i must study physics. nope, no apprentice today for me. i wanna watch!! ahh!! it's 9:01! it's on right now!!! ok...must turn my attention to the amount of force it is going to take to make me do work...hahaha...ok...bad physics joke. if i don't update my blog for awhile, it's b/c i've died or should i say drowned in my physics/chem work.

in doing all that i can, i still feel like an insignificant helpless body that has once again become a slave to its mistakes.

i wish i could scream & run....run faster than the wind and escape from this prison. i wish i could be free.....i wish i wasn't so bound by time, by so many countless obligations which i have no time for. i am such a fool for thinking that i could do it all...or for that matter, that i could do it on my own.

but what choice do i have? the only thing i know is to press on, to believe and not doubt. To trust that in it all none of it is in my control. and that all things work for the good of those who love Him.

the heavy burdening weight...why do i insist on carrying it myself? what i want to do, i do not do, and what i do not want to do, i do.

in a learning process -- here i stand, waiting for rescue.
______________________
in all things God works for the good of those who love him romans 8:28

what?? it's 11:45?? wOOt!! only 15 more min in my exam! and then psyc can kiss my butt....
as u can tell...exam thoughts are not usually the most productive. but nevertheless...i finished....to the best of my ability...and i hope that i did well....i dunno my gut instincts are kinda mixed up rite now...cuz u're never sure of ur answers in psyc...or i just suck at: is this better? or is this better? kinda game....argh....multiple choice, why do u have to be so tricksy? well...i guess it could have been worse. better than last psyc exam. studied hard, worked on the exam hard...nothing left for me to do. except trust.

i can't believe i serve such an awesome, personal God. the stronghold that helps me thru it all. it's all for you.
"Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you." psalm 9:10

truding along, wanting christmas to come sooner. with each exam i overcome one hurdle. i am now one step closer to christmas.

december 6th.
first exam, december 9th.
so close. so darn close.

i sit here in my room...trying so hard to focus. i'm so sick of studying. so tired of the same routine i've put myself into for the past 3 days or so. so wanting all of this to be over.

it feels like a cage. the cage of exams. the one i can never get out of easily. i always have to toil and pry, grit my teeth and sweat like a wild animal before i can get it unlocked and be free of its boudaries. each year, the cage seems to smaller and smaller, more and more confining. and my sister gets more and more annoying around this time. lol.

so much studying. so much studying. so much information. for all those people out there who may stumble across this blog and see my pain...i guess this would be comfort for you in that you're not alone. and for all those who don't need to study & can still manage to pull off straight 90s...i envy you. more than you know.

wow....i can't believe that 1st term classes are over already...it was all so freakin fast...wow... like wow.

so i'm all packed...ready to go home...oh gosh..i reallie miss my bed. back pain go bye bye! yeah! i can't wait for that...ooohhhh...and all those annoying rashes...wOOt! i can't wait to get rid of them...

newayz...i'm kinda in a random mood rite now and reallie scatterbrained...so buckle up & here we go:
-snow in kingston!! ahhh!! it's so pretty!! so nice to watch it fall, tried to catch snowflakes with my tongue but that totally didn't work & i just ended up lookin like a stupid idoit walking sticking out their tongue & not watching where they're going...newayz...
-guess what? i just left, went to the laundry room and came back! but u didn't notice cuz blogs have no sense fo time....haha
-teehee!! guess what this says!! hehe..it's buried treasure! trick i learned from james yesterday...cept this msg isn't that treasurable...lol
-cookie ice cream sandwiches are so darn good
-my suitcase is full and i have so much freakin stuff...argh..
-tea tastes so much better when it's cold outside
-fresh air! fresh air!
-the o.c. --what happened? you used to be good!!
-bus leaves in t minus 43 minutes
-surprises are always good...especially kinder surprises!! thx guys you're awesome!

ok...i think that's it for now...i wonder if my shane barnard cd has come in the mail yet.........

wow...december 1st. that date keeps ringing in my head b/c i can't believe that i have already come this far in my university career...lol...almost half of first year is almost done...this friday will conclude this term's classes. wow....where has all the time gone?

but even tho it seems so short...i've learned a ton of things...like....how...you shouldn't keep your room in an organized chaos b/c chaos eventually wins. ha. as u can tell, i learned that from experience. i guess on a more serious note, i've learned a lot about myself...where my limits are and where i should draw the line. darn...i never thought that ppl could be so distracting and i never thought that saying no would be so hard.

too many exams...too much info.......too many people. NOT to say that i don't love the ppl here...cuz i do...but exams + too many distracting good people = michka failing...now that would be a sad thought...no?