3.20.2006
you know u're tired when you drink and XL coffee and still manage to fall asleep while studying and in class.
you know u're tired when absolutely nothing makes sense to you.
you know u're tired when the things that should consume you suddenly do.
you know u're tired when absolutely nothing makes sense to you.
you know u're tired when the things that should consume you suddenly do.
3.07.2006
sometimes i wonder why i go through so much all of the time. there's always a ton of things on my heart that i have absolutely no idea how to communicate nor the desire to really share with people...or to even know how to meet people where they're at.
and being as stubborn and hard headed as i am, it takes forever for me to get anything and i realized today that the reason i go through so much is because i put so much on myself and place so many expectations on myself and try to hard to figure everything out without listening...leading to nothing but a vicious cycle. sometimes i get so lost and consumed in my struggles that i forget the promises of God, forget who I am in Christ and the extent to which I have been saved. It's so easy to loose hope and forget what God has done in my past and focus on the present situation...disregarding the future promises written in the word of God that I claim to believe and profess to be true.
in seeking guidance and the knowledge and wisdom of God, sometimes it's so easy to get lost in asking for blessings...and forget that we are in a pursuit for God and not His blessings. He should already be more than enough, and if that means that my heart has to be broken, shattered to pieces...go through mounds of suffering to be sanctified and refined, then that is what i will do. hold me to that guys. i know i can't do this on my own.
and being as stubborn and hard headed as i am, it takes forever for me to get anything and i realized today that the reason i go through so much is because i put so much on myself and place so many expectations on myself and try to hard to figure everything out without listening...leading to nothing but a vicious cycle. sometimes i get so lost and consumed in my struggles that i forget the promises of God, forget who I am in Christ and the extent to which I have been saved. It's so easy to loose hope and forget what God has done in my past and focus on the present situation...disregarding the future promises written in the word of God that I claim to believe and profess to be true.
in seeking guidance and the knowledge and wisdom of God, sometimes it's so easy to get lost in asking for blessings...and forget that we are in a pursuit for God and not His blessings. He should already be more than enough, and if that means that my heart has to be broken, shattered to pieces...go through mounds of suffering to be sanctified and refined, then that is what i will do. hold me to that guys. i know i can't do this on my own.
